๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐๐ฆ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ค๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐๐ช๐ฎ, โ๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฅ, ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฐf๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ๐ด๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ? ๐๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด?โ ๐๐ฆ๐ด๐ถ๐ด ๐ด๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ, โ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐บ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ด๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ.โ - ๐๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ธ 18:21-22
So often have I read this passage from the viewpoint of the religiously superior, with the haughtiness of Peter, once again being required to forgive a lowly sinner. How tiresome to have to forgive someone more than three times! How generous of my gracious and holy self to bestow forgiveness even as much as seven times!
I recently found myself on the opposite end of this situation, however. I was the one needing to ask for forgiveness from the same person, seven times and then some. I watched as he struggled to forgive me yet again; the desire to throw me out into the street, to leave me weeping and gnashing my teeth, was palpable.
And I deserved it.
I privately considered myself humble for seeking forgiveness over the last few weeks for behavior that a teensy-weensy part of me STILL believed was justified. A part of me strongly resisted what felt like groveling, my proud flesh hating every minute of it. By the wisdom of the Holy Spirit, I knew deep in my bones that it was necessary, though the knowledge that I WAS wrong and DID IN FACT need forgiveness grated on every single fiber of my being.
Yet I feared I had reached the limit of forgiveness. Had my rude, defiant behavior permanently changed this relationship, beyond repair?
I woke up this morning with Matthew 18:21-22 running through my head, but this time I realized I had been on the receiving end of seventy times seven.
Not only was I grateful that this sibling in Christ was able to forgive me, even if through clenched teeth, but I was struck once again by the unending forgiveness of my Savior, the seventy-times-seven grace He has for me.
The Almighty, the ever-present God, who heard my James 1:19-20 prayer on the morning commute, heard my cries of wrecked confession on the drive home.
And He forgave me โฆ without clenching His teeth.
๐๐ฉ, ๐ธ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ค๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ??
This forgiven sinner says, on this new day of grace,
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ฆ๐ด๐ถ๐ด ๐๐ฉ๐ณ๐ช๐ด๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฅ!
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